ReAnne. Rei-En.

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

It just came into my mind suddenly when I woke up this morning.

He had been lying even when it ended. Cos we agreed to still be friends even if it didn't work out. (say only la.) But even as a friend, he lied. I wouldn't have minded much if he was bad to me, but I CANNOT tolerate people lying to me. Especially important people like him. (important as in, in the past.)

I actually forgot that he lied to me, as in lying to me during the period we kept in contact as friends. (This proved that he didn't really treat me like a friend. True friends don't lie. Either that or he loves lying too much.) I don't suppose he realised that I knew he lied... He probably thought I was still the same naive girl who will take everything he said for real.

Maybe I didn't remember cos I didn't want to believe it was true. Perhaps it's some kind of self-deceiving, self-hypnotizing method. But now, my impression of him has plummeted to the end of hell. I don't feel any hate for him for what happened in the whole mess.

What I mind and resent him for is that he lied to me as a friend. It hurts more cos it shows the kind of disregard he has for me, and proved that I am nothing to him, not even worthy of the status of a friend. It's only now that I realise I'm just a superficial "friend" whom he lies to and entertains at times. (Talk about being slow.)

By doing this, he has proved himself to be what everyone said he was - a worthless jerk. Something which I have, in the past, fervently denied and defended him against.

Now then I learn that. Well, at least better than never. At least it's better than keeping only good memories of him and being stupid before, during and AFTER.

To hell with him. Can't be bothered with jerks like him anymore. I don't ever want to mention him here (or anywhere else for that matter) again.


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