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I went to this E L Studio at Fu Lu Shou Complex at Bugis to rebond my hair yesterday.
Wah lau. Sucks like hell lo.
(Anyway just in case you think E L is short form of the salon name... It's not ok. The salon name is just crappy.. Simply E L. I'm not shortening it for fear of being sued for slander. Just in case that's on your mind. :P)
The first time I went there, the rebonding was nice. But the girl who did it for me isn't working there anymore. So the bloody boss asked this stupid I'm-new-I-don't-know-anything-so-I'm-going-to-use-you-as-my-guinea-pig-ok guy to do my hair for me. The first step is to apply the protective cream.. Wah lau. Just by seeing how he does it, I knew he can't make it. So I requested for a change of stylist. The bloody boss said if the other stylist do, my hair will become more dry, which is SHIT... Cos please lo, if I let that I-don't-know-anything-so-I'll-probably-overdo-the-chemicals-and-fry-your-hair guy do it.. Come on la, obviously it'll be worse lo. He's lying through his teeth. So I insisted that I wanted someone else.
Anyway before I started rebonding, the bloody boss promised that my hair won't be damaged. But in the end it did lo. Anyway, let's leave that for later.
The 2nd stylist seemed more experience but in the end my hair got quite damaged at the ends, and she CUT OFF SO MUCH when I told her I wanted to keep long hair.
Bloody fucker.
I'm really damn bloody pissed lo. I hate people who cut my hair short. She just cut and cut without even telling or asking me anything.
Shit Ass. You think hair so easy to grow is it? Bloody hell.
I was so upset and the rebonding is not like super good either. And it's ex. The bloody shit ass of the boss charged me 200. When my hair after cutting is like, just below the shoulder.
Bloody shit ass ok. Son of a bitch. He's a bloody fucking idiot.
Anyway, the girl who did my rebonding there previously was gone. The other stylists are just not up to standard. I;m telling the truth. Shit ass.
Guys and girls. It's E L Studio at Fu Lu Shou Complex at Bugis.
REMEMBER NOT TO GO THERE.
Bloody fuckers. Can't even rebond properly. Make empty promises. Don't even know how to layer hair. Cut short people's hair. (Wah lau, I'm damn fucking pissed when people do that ok. Don't they know that it's damn difficult to grow long hair and you just cut it off without asking? It's just plain rude and irresponsible of the stylist to do that.)
And she cut my fringe short. And when I questioned her about it, she had the audacity to reply, "Oh, that's the fashion now."
Fashion your bloody ass. You did something wrong and you are just pushing away the responsibility. You are just another fucking idiot there.
Don't look back. I find that this is a really useful piece of advice. Moving on is also about not looking back, something which we often forget. When you look back, you tend to walk back a few steps. For me at least. So walk straight ahead and don't look back. :)
Anyway on Monday, I went with Faith to look for jobs. Supposedly for her la.. but I ended up gg for interview as well. I mean no harm right? Hahas.. First, I went for this part time make up artist interview for M.A.C. They have recruitment for this whole week so the lady said she'll let me know by Monday. Yeps. She said she don't mind having a permanent part timer for weekends cos if work, it's one whole shift. Not by hours. Yep.
Next we went to zouk. Hahas. So many people there. They had quite a few positions so we chose part time door host. Sofian called just now.. Guess what? Yeps I got the job! Hahas.. Starting tmr. Which is kinda fast. But so exciting! Hahas.. Actually i thought kind of no hope, cos I think I'm kinda gu niang.. Like, abit not right for the job ah. But who cares rite. Hahas. But they didn't call Faith... So don't think she got in. But it's ok.. Can always go for other jobs. She wanted something retail anyway. Heh. Anyway now I think I work at Suntec till 8 then go Zouk at 9 till wee hours in the morning. Heh. If I get the M.A.C. job then I won't work at Suntec anymore. (Cos the pay for make up artist is good. Hahas. The pay at Zouk not bad too.)
Anyway, I love my life. Finally i seem to be having some life after he's left. I want to live better than him and to live for myself. I want to and will be even happier without him. Thanks to my project mates for being understanding about my work hours. (Cos sometimes I can't turn up for meetings.)
I want to live a fulfilling life. This is it. I think I'm quite happy now. :)
I took off for Friday and Saturday on the impulse... Cos wasn't feeling very well cos of that guy on Thursday night. Aveling is back to help out for a week so if I want to rest, gotta be when she's still around. Cos usually when she's not here to help out, it'll be either Kimmy or me. (Kimmy is my boss.) Ya. T
ook 2 days off to take a break and to really think about things. I kind of got it sorted out. I guess. I hope. Hahas. I don't want to make myself so upset over some guy who don't love me and don't give a damn about me. I want to live even better than him and show him what he lost. (Like, if i see him again. Which I hope I never will. Some people are meant to be forgotten.) Yeps. It's not like I can't live without him and I don't need him. He's just a twig in the whole forest. Muahaha.
Sigh. Anyway the point is, I want to and I will live even better without him. Yeah. That's what I'm telling myself. I will live for myself and love myself because I am worth it. Ha.
I hope everyone else around me will be happy too. I love you. Yeps you. The one reading this now. :)
Don't know what's wrong with me nowadays. Keep looking back when I'm moving on. The more I think, the worse it gets. I just want to leave it all behind and move on. Maybe I'm just abandoning everything... Maybe it's cos I don't have the courage to face it. For now.
Anyway, I decided just now... I want to move on. So I'm going to help myself to look forward. Everything's going to be fine. I will be happy.
Anyway, it's a challenge juggling school, work and projects. Now that school have started, I'm starting to feel the pressure. I'm mentally and physically exhausted... But I hope I can continue to cope with all this. Wanted to take part in the HTM Open House Skit with Faith they all... But now I think I won't... Cos have projects and work to handle. And I don't think I'm willing to forgo the money forgone for skit rehearsals. Hahas.
Met Li Ping at Fare & Square just now. She looked so haggard... Like, the sparkle in her when I met her in the 1st sem is gone. I wish she'll be happy.
I've moved on quite a bit since the last time... Of course I still think about him everyday but I'm much better. I don't cry as much or feel depressed the whole day cos of him.
I'm trying not to think. Or rather, I just don't want to think. Maybe I'm scared to think. Maybe I'm disgusted with what he did. Maybe I just refuse to have a bad last impression of him. Maybe I just want to retain happy memories.
I don't know why. Really. I don't even know what I'm thinking.
Initially I thought I fell for this other guy so he didn't matter anymore.
Wrong.
He's still in my heart... hidden in a corner so that I won't see him... so that I won't think about him... so that it won't hurt.
The other guy is nice. He's not bad looking with a nice character and all that. But he's got some problems of his ex gf. (Hahas. How come all the guys I meet are like that?) I helped to give this guy some advice on how to win back him ex... Sometimes just to listen to him talk about it. I know how it feels cos I was in his position before.. As in, feeling sad and helpless and it's good to have a friend to listen to you talk.
I like him as a friend, I suppose. He's nice company and he helps distract me. I've sorted out my thinking and I've realised that the one I still love has never left my heart. Maybe it's just that I'm trying not to see him there.
I don't know how long he'll be staying here.
Bryan stayed in my heart for about half a year.
So I'll give myself half a year to get over it too.
Maybe I'm loving him by default. Maybe I love him too much to let go. I don't know. I don't dare to think... Cos I'm scared of feeling hurt.
I told Lois for the next half a year... I will not fall for anyone. Because I feel really tired now. And also cos I have no more feelings left to give.
For him, I did everything I could... Things that I should do... And things that I shouldn't do. But if its not meant to be, it won't happen. But at least at this point in time, I can look back and say... I really did my best.
I hope someone else will come and take his place quickly. (I wonder who will have the ability to do that.) So that I can stop feeling like shit.
Hmm.. Work is ok. Sometimes busy, sometimes super slack. When it's slack, I have nothing to do. As in, really nothing, nothing, nothing to do. So I just sit there and stone. Hahas.
Oh Philip and Leona came to visit me yesterday. Hahas... They helped me buy lunch. :) So nice. Hee.
Desmond is working at Raoul but only on weekends. Oh I actually saw him in person. Hahas. Cos I sort of knew him online. But Lois knows him too. But the way we knew him were kind of weird. Hee. Wendy is working at Balaclava! Yay.. I have friends working at Suntec! Hahas.
Actually I chose to work at Suntec cos it's near the Esplanade. That's where I had a lot of happy memories at my old workplace. And of a particular person. :) Anyway the particular person sent me a msg ydae... Was quite touched by what he said. Now I know why he meant more to me than the recent one. It's cos he had the heart to care. (Or so it seems. I'm gullible, remember? heh.)
Anyway I'm tired working and studying. But I'll try my best not to let it affect my projects... And not skip lessons. Hahas. :)
