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Friday, February 24, 2006

Exams are over... *phew* So many days of insufficient sleep.. So many days of looking and feeling like a zombie. Finally it's over. I think hopefully won't have to take supp paper. I'm over the iiluusion of getting good grades. Can pass will do. Ha.

Anyway, during the exam week, I think I saw him in the library when I reached early to study. As in, I said I think cos I'm not too sure.. Saw him walk pass and saw the side view only. But the posture and bag that he carried looked like him. For that moment, the way he looked just came back to me... It's as if I saw him. (which I think I did but not sure.)

Somehow my spirits went all the way after that... I went with my fren whom I happened to see to search levels 1 to 4 of the library. Wanted to go engine block after that to see if can see him but in the end didnt cos my friend didn't want to go. I mean, I understand la. Just that abit disappointed. Called Des after my exam to tell him what happened. Strangely the next 2 days I took cab to school for exams. I don't know if it's cos I want to save time to study or if I'm afraid of meeting him at the bus stop/interchange. (Cos last term I kept bumping into him during exam period.)

Anyway, it's after that that I realised I'm still not over. I try not to think about it but it's like running away. When you see it, it all comes back and it still hurts. But the hurt doesn't seem as bad in the past. All I need is time I guess... More time.

Went shopping on Wednesday and Thursday... Bought cosmetics. (Like, what else rite. Hahas.) Just take it as retail therapy... De-stress.


~*^*^*~ Once Upon A Time...I Believed.

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Sunday, February 19, 2006

ARH.

I'm like really screwed for exams this time cos I haven't been studying.

Like, usually I'll start by Monday of the study break but this sem I just didn't have the discipline. Somehow I seem to be taking this lightly and I don't know why. I went Zouk with Xue Yun & Faith on Wed, worked on Sat cos Wellie needed staff urgently. Like, wth. Study week lei.

Someone just save me. (Arh.. I know who I can turn to. He's up there. :))

I really think if I were to take supp paper anytime, it'll be this sem. Good luck to me.


~*^*^*~ Once Upon A Time...I Believed.

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

Was listening to "Ai. Hen. Nan." by Chen Wei Lian. Thought a lot again. Ya I know. Like what's the point. Maybe it's the stress of the exams. There's 5 papers to be taken in 4 days. Damn sucky. Good luck to me.

Arh. Don't think about it anymore. Didn't get much things done yesterday and today. Will continue to bia later on. Hmm.

Back to TP for exams again. Brings back memory of mid-sem. Hope I won't see him when I go back to TP for exams. I must be strong.

Where did my courage go anyway.


~*^*^*~ Once Upon A Time...I Believed.

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Friday, February 03, 2006

Just finished my FM online quiz. Got 45/50. Ok I guess... Considering I just browsed thru the notes before doing. Not in the mood to really read through.

I don't know what happened to me yesterday. The girl whom liked him alot msg-ed me on friendster and asked me what's up with him and how come he's MIA. Think he's finally ignoring her... That's why she's asking me. Well, the last time I went out with him, he did mention that she's starting to take him as his journal... Being even more persistent. Anyway, it's none of my concern and I don't want to bother.

Somehow it made me feel quite sad... Maybe cos I went to cine with Kai Li and when I got home, I saw her message. Maybe cos wat I had stashed away in the corner of my heart suddenly appeared in front of me. Maybe I'm still in a state of self-deception... Not seeing what I don't want to see. Maybe I'm still running away from him.

Kai Li was my model for the M.A.C. make up test. Well, it went alright I guess. But the person wanted a natural look... And Kai Li mentioned that the look I gave her was like smoky eye... So I changed to a more blah colour. But the person said too plain, so in the end the colours she chose for me to re apply was like, what I chose previously la. So much for a natural look. Sigh.

Anyway she said I'll know the results in at most a wk's time. So for now, guess I'll guai guai work for Kimmy at Suntec. Heh.

These 2 days not working, think I'm too free that's why I'm starting to think a lot. This is not good. Sigh. Anyway I called Bryan yesterday night at like 2am. Hahas.. He was sleeping. I think I shouldn't trouble him even if I'm not ok. Cos even if he says he'll be there for me, the truth is, he can't. Cos he has his own commitments too.

And I lost my pencil case. At my age. Can you believe it? Sigh.


~*^*^*~ Once Upon A Time...I Believed.

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